Go fuck yourself

I see beauty in the smallest of things. Let’s lay down on this cold cement platform and count the leaves because they’re blocking the stars. 1…2…3…fuck it. I’m bored of this. I just want to stare into your eyes and forget the world. There’s no greater feeling than being wrapped in your arms. I’m terribly afraid of heights, but with you I can forget and my fears disintegrate and I feel complete. I’m not one to take risks, but I took a chance on you and I’m glad that I did. I feel like a little girl, infatuated with your smile, but I love the way you make me feel. There’s a sparkle in your eye every time you say “I love you” that drives me wild. I was on the edge of the cliff when you came along. I was ready to jump, but something told me that I needed to shake this off and take your hand and follow you wherever you may go.

Take my hand.

Lead me away from this madness.

Take my hand.

Let’s forget all our sadness.

I’d follow you through the depths of the darkest forest. Just because I know you’ll keep me safe and I know I’d keep you happy. And even in the dark, you still shine bright. You guide me home because home is wherever you are. Don’t forget that I still have a monster inside of me. Let’s trap it and keep it in the closet because there are greater things and better days ahead. As long as you’re by my side, that is.

Oh, you have haunting memories? Put them on the top shelf next to my monster. I’m sure he’s hungry. 

Now let’s fade away. Fade away. Fade away into euphoria

You are beautiful. You are strong. You can get through this.

I promise.

Me: Babe, in 10 years, if we're still together that is-
Boyfriend: What do you mean "what if?"
Me: Well, you know what I mean
Boyfriend: No. I don't. What do YOU mean by what if we're still together in 10 years? I plan on still being together. I mean...unless you don't see us together still...then that's different and changes everything.
Me: I do want to be with you still in 10 years and 20 and 30 and forever, but...things happen. People always leave me so I'm just used to it.
Boyfriend: I'm not going anywhere. I love you.
Me: Promise?
Boyfriend: Promise. Pinky Promise.